Thursday, December 22, 2011

Happyness!

"He awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, happy. And during the course of each day his heart would descend from his chest into his stomach. By early afternoon he was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for him, and by the desire to be alone. By evening he was fulfilled: alone in the magnitude of his grief, alone in his aimless guilt, alone even in his loneliness. I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others--the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. I am not sad. I am not sad. Because his life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty white room. He would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of his bed, like some domesticated animal that was no part of him at all. And each morning he would wake with it again in the cupboard of his rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping. And by the midafternoon he was again overcome with the desire to be somewhere else, someone else, someone else somewhere else. I am not sad." — Jonathan Safran Foer

16 comments:

  1. where on earth are you? all well?

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  2. I second what Scribby said. Is all ok?
    And this para, sounds depressing...if you can relate to that, you need help!! Pronto!! :-|

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  3. @ All:

    :) All's well. And I am right here on this earth. This was just part of those mood swings :) All good otherwise. I just don't have any time to breathe. *sigh* (What a paradox 'breathe'.. 'sigh' !)

    P.S: It is a big bad world out there.

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  4. the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. helplessly beautiful, poignant!

    Thank you for sharing this :)

    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  5. @ Rachana:

    :) Made me think too.

    @ Maryam:

    Deep. But written so simply. As a matter of fact. :)

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  6. @ Blasphemous Aesthete:

    :)

    I like the line where it says-
    ..Because his life had unlimited potential for happiness :)

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  7. Quite an interesting read that makes you ponder a lot in life. Thanks for sharing this!

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  8. Went all cross-eyed trying to absorb it.

    Stop quoting other people and get back....like he said there is unlimited potential...;-D

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    1. Yes yes you did :)

      You just reminded me that I need to get back! Will, soon.

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